hello again,

firstly, thank you so much for attending WTF and experiencing my first official DJ gig playing out since 2018. needless to say, it means a lot, and i hope you enjoy my newest mix download as well. <3

beyond that, i wish to share a few things here in regards to my personal life regarding where things have been, where they are, and where they might be going. i share this stuff both because of a real sense of need and urgency on my part, but also because i believe having a less compartmentalized and closed off society insofar as "keeping it real" goes is ultimately a good thing, and a lot of us could do a lot to heal ourselves, each other, and the world we live in, by just being more open and understanding.

all that said, i will try my best to be as (relatively) brief as possible here cause there's really a lot to get into so i will try to condense. also, if anyone is inclined to reach out in any capacity, you are more than welcome to, and my contact info is accessible from the main page of my website.

my attempt at a summary:

as of 2016 i got out of what was an extremely abusive (physically, psychologically, financially, emotionally, etc.) relationship with someone who did a lot of damage to both me personally and various circumstantial aspects of my life. this person, who has thankfully not in my life directly, is someone who i have come to determine is, to use a couple very simple but succinct terms, psychotic and sociopathic - at best. this person is also, unfortunately, the other parent of my child, and i have come to learn that we live in a country which, amongst myriad other societal dysfunctions, has a family law / court system that is very ill-equipped at best to deal with, mitigate, or properly respond to child abuse, even if it is persistent and ongoing for years.

all this to say, both ongoing and aftermath circumstances around all of this, legal battles on behalf of my son, personal / financial recovery, etc, forced my DJing - something that for the previous years had become a significant and important part of my full time career - to go into a forced hiatus that lasted a lot longer than i had anticipated or wanted it to.

then there's other things. first it was piecemeal freelancing around my kid's schedule while custody was still shared and i had to wait on california's laws around schooling to let me place my son in school - something his problematic other parent did not want for him, but eventually happened. then there was full-time employment again for the first time in years. and then there was the absolute mess of the covid years. and everything since.

so now, basically since 2020 and in the years since, despite being highly employable as a multi-disciplined creative professional with a 25+ year tenure, i have instead faced what was functionally only one short-lived truly-full-time position, one contract gig, and 4 layoffs, as the US economy and job market seem quite functionally disparate and broken compared to what they once were.

while i have been able to finally work towards breaking my hiatus as a DJ over the past couple years leading to starting to find (and certainly hoping for a lot more quickly) gigs again, many things are otherwise quite dire in my life at the moment. and i definitely need help, in any capacity.

at present i reside in an apartment building with an unfortunately predatory, non-local landlord who is prejudiced against me. he is using my current financial circumstances to attempt to forcibly evict me by the beginning of july. that's next month as of the creation of this webpage.

speaking of this webpage, my hundreds-of-dollars semi-annual web hosting bill is also due this month - where i host and release all of my mixes, my professional portfolio, my résumé, etc - and i have zero current capacity as of typing this to pay for that either.

over a year ago my aforementioned kid's psychotic and abusive other parent had a relapse episode and abducted him. due to the tediously slow and terminally procedural court and legal system, i am still presently working with both an attorney and a reconciliation therapist to get him back with me full-time. all of this is also ongoing expenses i cannot afford given current circumstances.

all things being equal - i need more of these circumstances to change, immediately and urgently. due to what all of these circumstances have been, rebuilding my social life and networking circles has been quite slow. as such i have no immediate feasible work leads (though i keep trying) and more importantly i have absolutly nowhere locally or otherwise to go if i am evicted in july - and needless to say for both myself and my child i have to find some way to not end up on the street with all of my music, equipment, and everything else i own just lost at the same time.

i need help. so i suppose this message will just culminate in me stating that plainly. whether it's immediate work leads, a temporary safe place to stay (with my son) while i continue to work on less immediate work leads, direct financial support, or anything else, i am open to and in need of all of these things, as i continue to try to build out a network of support here in san francisco, where despite moving here in 2014, because of what personal life circumstances have been for so much of that time, networking and getting to a point where i can start having more of a life has been slow going.

so, with that, i will just state that if any of this matters to you and you do have capacity to help or offer support or whatever, my email and iphone, as mentioned, are available via links on my website homepage. i accept donations of any amount via all applicable platforms. please reach out if you feel so inclined. and pass this along if you think of someone relevant to pass it along to. i'm trying to set things up for some serious miracles to manifest this month. i'm back in the DJ booth. how does all this other stuff resolve without me being on the street in a month? i'm hoping in typing this i'll begin to find out, at the very least.

and at the very least, thanks for reading. <3

sincerely,
lars